On December 13, 2011, I had surgery to fix a vaginal floor prolapse and to have a hysterectomy. I was excited for the fixes because they are ultimately supposed to help relieve a lot of my pain.
My doctor did tell me from the start that my pain may increase for a short while after the surgery, so we decided we would deal with that on a day to day basis. My recovery wasn't awful, and the pain was nowhere near as bad as I thought it would be. I was laid up for a good 6 weeks with the help of Dave and the girls. And Skyrim.
I knew these were the best options for me considering the condition I was in. I didn't plan on having any more children, so I asked that they perform a hysterectomy as well. While I STILL feel that it was the right decision for me as part of my care and pain management, I do find that I get a little nostalgic and a wee bit regretful when I see everyone around me having babies. I'm happy for them, no question there. It just causes a sort of "internal mourning" I suppose.
Maybe I can articulate this at an earlier hour sometime. Or, maybe not. We will just have to see what comes up.
You now have 5 beautiful babies. It definitely was time to stop the baby factory.
ReplyDeleteBut I know all to well how you feel watching everyone around you have their babies, and know that you won't (or can't) have more.
Just focus on your recovery, and know that your girls are beautiful and bright. ;-)